Update

So instead of doing the productive thing and getting ready for work, I've been sitting here thinking about all the mistakes I've made. The only conclusion I've come up with so far is that this is not the most productive way to start a day as now I'm feeling somewhat depressed, and pretty upset with myself for wallowing in the past when I know I can't change it. Having said all that, it doesn't change the remorse I feel at having been such an idiot child. Sometimes it feels as though nothing has changed and I'm still making the same mistakes and hurting the people I love.

I'm sorry